BUT TODAY!!! WHY, OH, WHY does a person do that to themselves???
One minute, he is dripping with sweat, peeling his clothes off, and saying he is about to melt.
The next minute he is shivering as though he is covered with ice, and he is putting on clothes and a hoodie and saying he is freezing.
He says he wants to die. He says he couldn't take enough of the pills to die, and he says the pills are "crap" when you can't take enough to die.
And the CIGARETTES!!! One after the other, after the other, after the other. My patio smells and looks like an inferno. I smell like cigarettes. My contacts have a smoky film over them. He asked me at supper a bit ago if it was alright if he goes out on the patio and smokes after we are in bed. His poor lungs aren't even going to get a break at night!
You would think the fact that his body is so wondrously made that it has survived 21 of these episodes in the past (he told us that this morning), and is going through it again, would be proof enough to him that there really is a God.
SOMEHOW, Jerry and I are staying chipper and being as kind as we know how to be to Don. I feed him and keep asking him if there is anything he needs. Jerry sits and talks and listens and talks and listens and talks and listens. He is being an AWESOME big brother! More like a father, really. We pray that God gives us the words to say to him and that somehow, some way, we can help him overcome this menace of drug-addiction that has plagued him since his teens.
And I made another video for you today -- just talkin'.
I have on the knit top I made in between rehab visits today. This one is six minutes long. Pardon the non-matching yellow pants and the unfinished knit top.
And here is a picture of our ALMOST finished patio. Jerry and I both are so happy with the results, and we both wish we had done it when the house was built. There are 3 ceiling fans, but I can't seem to get a picture with the whole porch in it. The top of the posts are still awaiting the caps that have to be special-built due to contractor error.